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Name: C. J.
Birthday: 7/16/1984
Gender: Male
Interests: Sports( I am the king of sports. Don't belive me just ask me a question and i will answer it.), movies, music,
Expertise: sports (football, soccer, basketball, baseball, etc.) Just ask any question. I know the answer.
Occupation: Student
Message: message meEmail: email me
AIM:  eersrock2
Member Since:
4/12/2004
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| Ok so it has been a long time since I posted anything here and this is going to be one of those posts if you don't read it I wouldn't blame you.
My father and I are fighting over something so freaking stupid it is almost laughable. It all started on Christmas Eve. Everyone was at my Aunt Becky's like every year. Well my Dad, Debbie ignored Meghean (my girlfriend for those who did not know) because they think she is a pompous ass. I think that about Debbie and my Dad sometimes but I never said it. Well I was so pissed off that I did not know to approach the subject especially over the phone. So he decides to message me on myspace instead. He proceeds to bash my girl and my mother (saying that she what me to be a weasel and not the man that he brought up)...that part is so freaking hilarious that I almost pissed myself laughing so hard.
The part of all of this that I can't figure out is that 3 years ago he accused me of doing the same thing to Debbie on her first Christmas Eve. We had a huge yelling match and fight. At the end of it I admitted that I was wrong and apologized to all involved.
Now, he does the same thing but it is ok because he does not like her. How in the f---ing world is that even remotely fair. I swear some days that man makes me what to just scream and hurt something. I sent a replay back to him and was respectful but I am still trying to figure out to do about all of this.
Anyone got any idea??
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| I miss you granddad....this song is dedicated to you.
Verse One: Puff Daddy
(Yeah... this right hear... goes out to everyone who has lost someone they
truly love)
Seems like yesterday we used to rock the show
I laced the track, you locked the flow
So far from hangin on the block for dough
Notorious, they got to know that
Life ain't always what it seem to be (uh-uh)
Words can't express what you mean to me
Even though you're gone, we still a team
Through your family, I'll fulfill your dream (that's right)
In the future, can't wait to see
If you open up the gates for me
Reminisce some time, the night they took my friend (uh-huh)
Try to black it out, but it plays again
When it's real, feelings hard to conceal
Can't imagine all the pain I feel
Give anything to hear half your breath (half your breath)
I know you still living your life, after death
Chorus: Faith Evans
Every step I take, every move I make
Every single day, every time I pray
I'll be missing you
Thinkin of the days, when you went away
What a life to take, what a bond to break
I'll be missing you
Verse Two: Puff Daddy
[Puff] I miss you Big
It's kinda hard with you not around (yeah)
Know you in heaven smilin down (eheh)
Watchin us while we pray for you
Every day we pray for you
Til the day we meet again
In my heart is where I'll keep you friend
Memories give me the strength I need (uh-huh) to proceed
Strength I need to believe
My thoughts Big I just can't define (can't define)
Wish I could turn back the hands of time
Us in the 6, shop for new clothes and kicks
You and me taking flicks
Makin hits, stages they receive you on
I still can't believe you're gone (can't believe you're gone)
Give anything to hear half your breath (half your breath)
I know you still living you're life, after death
Chorus:
Every step I take, every move I make
Every single day, every time I pray
I'll be missing you
Thinkin of the days, when you went away
What a life to take, what a bond to break
I'll be missing you
Faith Evans:
Somebody tell me why
One Black Morning
When this life is over
I know
I'll see your face
112 Outro:
Every night I pray, every step I take
Every move I make, every single day
Every night I pray, every step I take
[Puff] Every day that passes
Every move I make, every single day
[Puff] Is a day that I get closer
[Puff] To seeing you again
Every night I pray, every step I take
[Puff] We miss you Big... and we won't stop
Every move I make, every single day
[Puff] Cause we can't stop... that's right
Every night I pray, every step I take
Every move I make, every single day
[Puff] We miss you Big
Faith Evans:
Every step I take, every move I make
Every single day, every time I pray
I'll be missing you
Thinkin of the day, when you went away
What a life to take, what a bond to break
I'll be missing you
Every step I take, every move I make
Every single day, every time I pray
I'll be missing you
Thinkin of the day, when you went away
What a life to take, what a bond to break
I'll be missing you
Every step I take, every move I make
Every single day, every time I pray
I'll be missing you
Thinkin of the day, when you went away
What a life to take, what a bond to break
I'll be missing you
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| "Everything Changes"
If you just walked away
What could I really say?
Would it matter anyway?
Would it change how you feel?
I am the mess you chose
The closet you cannot close,
The devil in you I suppose
'Cause the wounds never heal.
[Chorus:]
But everything changes
If I could turn back the years
If you could learn to forgive me
Then I could learn to feel,
Sometimes the things I say
In moments of disarray
Succumbing to the games we play
To make sure that it's real.
[Chorus]
When it's just me and you.
Who knows what we could do.
If we can just make it through
The toughest part of the day.
[Chorus]
Stay here together
And we could
Conquer the world
If we could
Say that forever
Is more than just a word.
If you just walked away
What could I really say?
Would it matter anyway?.
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| Why must girls lie???? What let me rephrase that Why must bitches lie??? I dont get it. I am a nice, caring and compassionate guy so why does it seem that I get stuck with girls who want nothing but to cause drama and heartache for me. I have been lied and minuplated way to many times to count anymore. I am starting to wonder if love and being happy are truly worth putting myself through all the hurt and agony. I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY AND FIND A GIRL THAT WILL MAKE ME HAPPY AND NOT HAVE ALL THE BULL CRAP!!!!!!!!! Where is she??? I know that God has her out there for me, I just wish that He would bring her into my life soon.
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| Ok well it has been a while sense I wrote here and looking at my last posts here I think all I do is rant and rave and post when I am going through a hard time. I think that I do that because it helps get out my thoughts and feelings and probably on some level because I dont know how to talk to so I just post it. So in case you have not figured it out this is not a really happy post. I want it to be and I am trying my hardest to be happy it is just going to take me little bit of time. My best friend/adopted brother Erick and my ex girlfriend Jamie have feeling for each other and they want to get to know each other better and see if they want to date and all that good jazz. Guys you know this a best friends worst nightmare. Now dont get me wrong if it works out and they do find happiness togather than the two most important people in my life are could be closer than ever...especially if I can find happiness and all four of us can do stuff togather. I am going to be honest here...I am hoping that thinks work out and that both of them are happy and if that means them dating and being in a realtionship then that is tottally fine. If that means they are jsut going to be friends that is fine too but all I want is for everone to be happy. However, my biggest fear in all of this that I will lose the two most important people in my life. They have both said that I wont and about 99% of me believes that but it is that 1% that keeps saying things are going to change and you are going to be the third wheel...the odd man out....kicked to the curb...looking on from the outside. And in all honesty I am not worried about me and Erick's friendship changing as much as me and Jamie's. We were just starting to get to the point where we could come to each other about anything and for me that was huge because I dont have any friends like that that are girls. I want Jamie to be my best friend soooo bad that I can taste it. I could not handle losing her friendship. I dont just want here friendship...I need it. I have ask God to help me and give a "peace" about this and right now I can say the werid feeling that I have had for like the past several hours the same feeling that kept me awake all night is starting to die off but I do know the first time that I see them togather being all coupliy I am probably going to get that feeling back but I am hoping that after just a couple of days that will go away. I know that God never gives us more than we can handle but why does it feel like I have been pushed to the edge and left behind. Why does everyone I know get to be happy and find happiness and I am not??? Now please dont think that I am trying to get you to feel sorry for me not being happy and hate them because that is not what I want at all. That was just a question that I have been wrestling with for last day or two.But if anyone has any words of encouragement or just something that you think will make me smile or laugh please leave them
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